My Love, My Life

 I had a very busy day today. I started early reading the bible at the Passion. The thing that I took away was don't try to understand God, just trust, believe and have confidence that God really does love me. To send his son through the pain when he was innocent, was remarkable. My grandson just watched the Passion of the Christ in his Theology class and he said he didn't like it because it was so violent. We are so used to the soft, kindly image of Christ's crucifixtion that when we see the real evil, when darkness comes in and just walks around putting evil in everyone's heart, it makes you think we are truly not worthy. But God saved us through his son. Thank God for Mercy. I'm so excited to see you on Saturday. Its been over a year since i've seen you in person. Wow. Is the love still there? I'm using my power to believe and say that it is still there for both of us. You are probably excited too. I will be there at 10am. Its suppose to be a nice day too...

I hope that I can be obedient to God. Today God lead me to Jonah, first chapter. The introduction helped me to understand the people like to choose who is good enough to receive God's words and who are so fierce that you don't think God's words will make a big difference with them. We are not to choose. I am not to choose who should receive God's word. I pray that on Saturday its not the same old same old relationship with you and me. I feel that is were my disobedience and yours is coming from. Talk to me, take time with me, give me a chance to obey God. I remember saying long ago the God has chosen you for me but I have been the one running in the opposite direction. Help me to stay in your world, your care, your love. Let us not disappoint God. Have a blessed day My Love.  

 God Bless you today on Palm Sunday. Holy Week. God has risen for us and we celebrate his victory all week. The good and the bad.  As I look at this migrant problem at the border I wonder why the U S A isn’t billing, charging a fee, or taxing the countries where they are coming from. Tax, charge a fee for each individual from their country and Mexico for allowing it to happen. They may not get the money but it looks a lot better than just come on over and we will take care of you. The countries that they are leaving have been doing this for years. They have never been verbally put on notice that there will be a fee charge for each immigrant. It makes us look more assertive than just sappy. Come up with an alternative. They will continue to come and be welcomed, but charge these countries that are dumping their problems on us. These people need help. These people need help and if their country won’t help them then we need to charge them, the country, daily. Let them know we are...

 Destroying Evil Hosea 4:6 My people are destroyed from lack of knowledge. That statement alone reflects the stat of our nation. These killings, assaults on police, senseless military style weapons still legal. Voting laws in Georgia being changed to make sure the disadvantaged have a harder time to vote. Jim Crow is strong in the south. The tornadoes in the south makes me think God is trying to tell them something. When are we going to allow people to be people. When does a difference really make a difference? People are desperate. They have been socially isolated for a year and now as they come out of isolation, they feel no one notices them. We hear they are loners, no friends, angry. This is going to continue. People are in need of help but won’t seek it. The ones who could give it to them deny them basic living rights. Social emotional feelings will push the economic needs of people. W Have a blessed day and and be a blessing to someone My Love. 

 I am not on Facebook but I shared it with my Facebook family. I am excited to see that you are excited to return to benefitting the community. I love you. ❤️ 

 A whole 63 years on this earth with God’s mercy, grace and love. You can wish me happy birthday on my Facebook timeline. I don’t really use Facebook, but I will be looking today. No post from you, then I’m just fooling myself, post from you and it’s a go. I can’t get flowers, an I love you or anything else special from you, so give me a post. Is that acceptable, my darling?

 I know you would if you could.  Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Spend time praising God for the joy, peace and hope we have in Christ. He’s on our team. Much love to you, good night My Love.

 Kim hit it on the head in her sermon about the woman at the well. Women are mentioned in the Bible 600 times, as she stated, but no names. Say my name, see me, know me, understand me. Mike, My Love, I can say your name. Can you say mine? Love you.

 I believe that you are trustworthy, honest and that you care. All things work together for Go’s D’s will. Night, night, my love.

 My Love you have intensely been on my mind this week and I have daily reached out to God to help me find serenity in the things I cannot change. This morning he directed me to a prayer of trust and immediately I knew that’s what we need. You to trust me and me to trust you. Trust is based on a person’s character, ability and truthfulness. It’s an act of committing oneself to another person with good intentions and Care. Trust requires taking risk. Committing ourself to the good intentions and care of another. We commit ourselves to Gods care because we believe that he always has good intentions and care for us. God is trustworthy. Can we be trustworthy to one another? Can we trust each other? Can we commit to one another to care and always have good intentions for each other? I pray that we can. Another set of questions that receive no answers. God can do all things through Christ our Lord. Have a blessed day my love.

 You know if this relationship ever progresses into reality you are going to have to spend a lot of money on flowers and jewelry-I get the poor pastor thing, but save your pennies cause you are going to need a lot of forgiveness- I love you and have waited for you for twenty something years- you can’t even tell me you love me without twenty women running to your church- when do I get my man? If ever-

 Proverbs 17:22 A cheerful heart is good medicine, But a crushed spirit dries up the bones. I have learned to not take my self too seriously. Lighten up and laugh.I have God on my side, so what worries should I have. Be blessed, My Love and be a blessing to someone.

 I know that no intentional harm was meant. I just get upset when people with mental illness are made fun of. You wouldn’t make fun of a person with diabetics conditions or cancer. No way, you bring them casserole and do check ups to see how they are doing. I am touchy about that because these young black and white men are on the verge of explosion and they need mental behavioral health therapy. They are angry but won’t seek help because it’s sneered upon and they don’t want to look weak. A storm is coming. I am waiting for my expectations because I believe in Jesus and forgiveness is important. Thank you for loving me and willing to take on a woman who is bi polar, general anxiety and depression. Meds help to keep me stable and mood enhancements. I pray that you really are willing to take on this woman.  I hope that God continues to hear my prayers. Be blessed tonight and rest well My Love.

Phillipians 4:8 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is  true , whatever is  noble , whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things. Whatever is true,noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent or praiseworthy, think about such things. Peace with God will guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus. My understanding is transcended by the knowledge of peace with God.  I draw on that peace and understanding as I try to think of the eight things that God wants us to think about . My sensitivity to mental illness jokes and despair is true. While the rev ended with the woman wanting to pray and not come out of the hospital the same as she came in. Sickness such as cancer, broken bones, and physical internal injury gets way more respect than mental illness. Our brain is an o...

I’m reading the intro to the book of Mathew. It says this was the first manual for Christians in the early years. It was to teach us how to be a disciple of Christ, and how to disciple others. “Discipleship is defined as the application of Christian truth to the present. Discipleship is a very practical matter.”  Truth to the present. Those are strong words that we still struggle with today. How do I deal with my anxiety. How do enhance my relationship! How do I deal with what God wants me to do on a daily basis? God is so real. My brother was carjacked while driving Uber last night. 2:30 in the morning and the house phone rings. I had to go and get him. He was in Calumet City. Praise God we have Life 360 on all of our phones so he and the police were able to track their movements and find the car within twenty minutes. The police toed it so the thieves wouldn’t come back for it and took him to the police station to wait for me. They youngun’ fooled him by asking him to take them t...

 It puts a smile on my face and joy in my heart when I know I am communicating with you. It’s just you and me. So good morning my love. I’m reading my bible more now that I am communicating with you. I know I can be difficult and get mad at you for stuff you don’t think matter, but they matter to me. God has directed me today to Matthew 15:1-16:20. I don’t even know which part I want to emphasize. Pharisees who question the behavior of his disciples which isn’t in accordance with their customs but Jesus says it’s not what you do on the outside it the words that come from your heart. Then he ignores a Canaanite women, I guess she was a rich woman, who asks Jesus to heal her daughter from demons, his disciples are quick to turn her away and even Jesus rebukes her but her response shows him she is faithful and he heals her daughter. He then goes on a mountainside and the community brings their sick and lame and he heals them all.This always made me think that they weren’t following hi...

 Isaiah 43:1-4 (The Message Version) But now,   God ’s Message,      the God who made you in the first place, Jacob,      the One who got you started, Israel: “ Don’t be afraid, I’ve redeemed you.      I’ve called your name. You’re mine. When you’re in over your head, I’ll be there with you.      When you’re in rough waters, you will not go down. When you’re between a rock and a hard place,      it won’t be a dead end— Because I am  God , your personal God,      The Holy of Israel, your Savior. I paid a huge price for you:      all of Egypt, with rich Cush and Seba thrown in! That’s  how much you mean to me!      That’s  how much I love you! I’d sell off the whole world to get you back,      trade the creation just for you. That's how much God loves you and I love you just as much. Fro...

  Remember that when you go through your day.

 Restoration is coming! Jeremiah 31:20 I have surely heard Ephraim’s moaning:      ‘You disciplined me like an unruly calf,      and I have been disciplined. Restore me, and I will return,      because you are the  Lord  my God. 19  After I strayed,      I repented; after I came to understand,      I beat my breast. I was ashamed and humiliated      because I bore the disgrace of my youth.’ 20  Is not Ephraim my dear son,      the child in whom I delight? Though I often speak against him,      I still remember him. Therefore my heart yearns for him;      I have great compassion for him,” declares the  Lord . I truly believe the Lord will restore you. There were those who wanted to take you down and destroy you, but it won’t happen. Godhears the p...

 God must have something really good in store for you because you are really being attacked. During this turbulent time I feel that incentives have been offered to them. You have pissed off a lot of people who are angry with revenge. That hate has been watered over the last four years. I know you are strong and resilient but sometimes you just want to fight back. Let God fight your battle. You have stayed quiet, respectful and held your head up. Remember the sovereign God rules and his decision is final. God hears the prayers of his people and we are his people and he hears our prayers. My Love, this too shall pass. Stay strong and resilient. 

 May the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you - Numbers 6:25 So glad to communicate with you again. I have high hopes for you and I am not going to disappoint myself. I pray for you daily. 

 God Bless you today. Here I am up again at 3am. At least I did have some sleep before this time. I dreamed I was George Clooney and Amal's teacher for their children. But they had like eight kids. Adopted and natural.  That was weird and fun. Dreams. I'm not a social media person. I don't post often, if ever. I have facebook, instagram, twitter, even Tik Tok, my grandson put it on my phone but I am not up to date with any of that. I like my old fashioned blogger because it gives me a sense of a diary where I can express my feelings openly and freely, most of the time. Its still the internet and the two people who it has meaning for may also have five others who it is just fun, nosy reading. Actually people really do use blogs for successful adventures today. Education, finance, mindfulness, religion, etc. So I guess I'm just lazy about being open and fanciful to attract others. But the one I want is attracted to my journal and that is enough for me.  2 Timothy 4 It...