My Love, My Life

 Hello, My Love. Yes, you are my love.  Show me how to say yes to you. I don't want to sign up for a spot and not be acknowledged by you.  I don't drive 40 minutes to Chicago, sit in a church with people I don't know for 2-3 hours for a shared spiritual experience with a pastor that I love. Then drive 40 minutes to go home crying because I might as well be at home on the internet.  I need intentional, deliberate, acknowledgment. You have made me feel bad about myself and I don't want that. You have made me feel like maybe I am making this relationship thing up with you and me. You don't talk to me. You talk about me. You use my life  like its potato chips to share. So if you are truly wanting me, you love me,  you have to show it. Show me that you love me. Get my attention.  If its all in my head, then things will continue as they have been and this is just a post out to the world. If not, then this will be a very exciting week for both of us. Let's se...

  If someone is suppose to be in your life then they will be in your life. If you God will make the difference. Good or bad, everyone is a learning experience.  I literally told a parent to hold up their computer so I could see their screen because she didn't know how tho share her screen. That's what virtual learning will do to you. Just like asking where is my phone then I'm talking to someone on the phone. Wow. We were eventually successful. We worked the problem. Work the problem, not the people. Celebrate the little successes.One step at a time. 

  Praise God, praise God. I am thankful for another day to serve my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Blessed is his holy, holy, holy name. The Lord is worthy to be praised! Lord I know now why I didn't decide to pay for the subscription for the dating app. I have my brother whom I can't leave alone. I promised my mother I would look out for him and I will. Sometimes life will throw us a line and we hang on. I'm capable. I got this. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. All things work together for those who love the Lord. We can do all things through Christ. My affirmations for the day. Let's kick the devil in the butt and make this an awesome day. Yes Lord, Yes. 

  We have to take care of ourselves in order to take care of others. Spiritual renewal daily. Help others daily. I have to remember to do that. Last week I went for a mani/pedi with a massage. Heaven. Started weight control last week and I have been very good about daily tracking my food intake. But this week, I have been helping my daughter maneuver pharmacy school. I'm so glad she is in, but now she has to stay in. She needs help in one class and organization for all of them. Hopefully she will be receptive to my help. So far she is. It warmed my heart when she came to me for help. I don't want to push too much. Don't over do it. Give her space and she will blossom. My GS, he is loving the social and athletics in high school. We just have to see how academics are. He of course says everything is fine. Yea OK.  Relationships are hard. Should I go to online dating. That's what my fam thinks I should do. Why not? I really don't want to be alone. Maybe if I just talk ...

 Good Morning World, Thank You God, you are the one constant in my life. I can depend on you Lord. You stay. You are devoted, solid and strong. I love you Lord.  I look at the world now and know that change will come. The elite let the poor get so poooor. They Gave them a glimmer of hope with the 1200 and 600 for unemployment. When they had a chance to be treated as a productive, proactive citizen and nurture the people through this pandemic, they choose to go back and try to put people in a whole, even deeper than the one they had adjusted to before the pandemic, but noooooo, the people said I ain't going back. I had a taste of freedom and I am FREE! The more they have degrade themselves by waiting in lines for food and the essentials, the more the country will see unrest. They just let them get soo poor. Not to mention the continual harm being done by right wing forces. That man is stacking the deck with judges and officials at the top who support him. If only they had coura...

 Wow! I didn't realize how much I missed this. Life is a circle. It will bring you full circle back to what you think you don't need or want. I think I'm going to write a book, or get that doctorate, or take on a part time job, or sell my house, or just live.  I'm back to work. I went into the city yesterday and I still see stores boarded up. The school looked good though. I'm excited to have the opportunity to really have a premiere arts school on the south side of Chicago. This world is a mess and it's not getting any better. God has just put it on my heart to write some things about whats going on in the U.S.A. I hurt. I need to heal.                                                                  Loving Others We will never know how much good just a simple smile  can do. We t...