My Love, My Life

 While I know you haven’t even been reinstated for a month, I’m making declarations. You have probably said here she goes again. You know I’m up and down. I just don’t you want to blame anyone. The stars just aren’t aligned for us right now. Today I was asking God what to do about my future and he directed me to Mark 13, Keep Watch. When is it hard to wait on God? Always. 

 Every time that person sneezes the video pauses. You were already off sync with th sound and vide. Video was running faster. The were stops in the you tube video online that I couldn’t watch it  on my tv, I had to go to my phone and iPad. Your message was strong and appropriate at this time. I’m ready for the storm, I’ve had good success with my job hunting. I turned it over to God. I asked God to place me in the right place and around the right people with the right salary. After all I don’t lie to myself. I’m 63 and I’m determined to keep walking with Jesus. Our invasion of Jesus and God in this world is important. We turn over the storm to the Lord. When the devil comes for us, we turn it over to God. God bless you My Love. 

Zephaniah 3:17 New International Version The  Lord  your God is with you,      the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you;      in his love he will no longer rebuke you,      but will rejoice over you with singing.” I forgive you for your decision. I'm just as much to blame as you are. You have to rebuild your church community. You have been away for a long time and my bugging you is not the right time or season. I forgive you and pray for you to be successful in your endeavors. My purpose was to keep you encouraged and to give you something to look forward to if it did go sideways. You are a gifted man and deserving of your gifts. I stay committed to you and your church. you are a good man. Be blessed today and be a blessing. I pray that the weather will give you space to have your rally tonight. I don't have a car so I won't be there anyway. Take Care and take care of your community. You ar...

  Isaiah 41:10 New International Version 10  So do not fear, for I am with you;      do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you;      I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Psalm 62:5-6 New International Version 5  Yes, my soul, find rest in God;      my hope comes from him. 6  Truly he is my rock and my salvation;      he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. Truly I seek God for my future. I have 3 solid companies interested in me and I am praying that  I make the right decision for myself. Special Education Teachers are in high need but the roles can be very different. I just have to continue to trust in God. I watched this Series on Amazon Video "Them". Its very  controversial and makes some very important details about race. Its also involves the devil and God but that's secondary to the movie. The part t...

 I'm reading Ezekiel 44:22-23 because I asked God to show me if he is going to give his blessing on this and that is where I was led. I wanted something from the New Testament and asked again to show me his blessing and I went to Acts 4:32. I can stand with either decision. I love you and will follow what ever your leadership. Have a blessed day My Love.

 I'm surprised you didn't give us food for today. Maybe you are out of town or something. I had a dream about you a couple of days ago. You and I were talking in church then we were in a room in the rectory with other people sitting on the couch but there was one person between us. Then you went out a door and you were speaking to a large group of people in a temple or something like that. I was then in the room by myself I got sleepy and laid on the couch, you came and put a blanket on me. you were protective of me with the other people. Then I woke up. I think you feel you won't have time for me and when you do you will be very protective of the time we do have together. It felt comfortable but I felt your concern. I'm blessed that the tornado didn't reach our house. We we so scared because the warning went out for the area but then we didn't get another warning. I thank God it passed us by. I'm sorry for the people who were affected but at least there was...

Isaiah 43:1-3  “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;      I have summoned you by name; you are mine. 2  When you pass through the waters,      I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers,      they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire,      you will not be burned;      the flames will not set you ablaze. 3  For I am the  Lord  your God,      the Holy One of Israel, your Savior; How do you feel when you hear the words I love you? Do you discard the feelings and ignore and feel ashamed. Some people never get to hear I love you. Sometimes I love you can seem overwhelming and constant by those who are expressing their love for you. I love you is overused in countless songs, books and movies. It is almost just a casual expression that has lost the true meaning. When I tell you I love you its personal. ...

 I watched the Father”s Day services. They were powerful. I hope we can reconcile the men and women and begin to love one another. Forgiveness and trust is needed on both sides. I trust you and I believe in you.  Thank you for being a faithful, strong, honest individual. I’m going to bed now, be blessed My Love.

 I'm happy we have a celebration for ending slavery in this country but when are we going to make some economic change. Talk is good. Parties, barbecues and music festivals are all good. Yeah that we now have a national holiday so quickly. I remember marching at the capital in Boise, Idaho in order to make it a federal holiday, now just in a matter of weeks we have Juneteenth as a federal holiday. My heart prays that the economic repairs will be made. The generational wealth was passed down. Blacks were excluded, towns burned down if they were doing too good, no insurance paid anything and nobody went to jail. Redlining to deliberately put black peole in a poor negative income housing situation. Where and how are they going to fix that. People need a living wage to take care of their families. The minimum wage is not for adults to take care of families. Its to barely survive, to make just enough to not qualify for assistance. When I see economic change, then I will rejoice. It'...

  Ephesians 1 : 4 , NLT:  "Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes."  Love is so important. It requires trust, vulnerability and compliance and submission. Love can be wonderful. I choose you to love and submit my trust and  vulnerability to. There is no one in my past that I love like I love you. You are the one for me. Know this and I'm totally leaning into the relationship. I miss you so much and knowing that I will be away from you makes it even harder. Sometimes the devil will put doubt in my mind and say thing like, what makes you think he wants to marry you, do you really think you are going to get married and other negative thoughts. So I commit my self to positive thought. I tell you how much I love and believe in you. I follow you lead, I commit to you, you  army husband and I am your wife in our world. God is good and I believe his words over you and me. I love you...

  Proverbs 17:22 New International Version 22  A cheerful heart is good medicine,      but a crushed spirit dries up the bones. A cheerful heart helps us learn to laugh at ourselves more freely. Don't take yourself so seriously. Relax and know that God is with us. What we worry about-things beyond our control are in God's control. Don't miss the joy of his presence by carrying around the weight of the world on your shoulders. God wants us to laugh and lift our hearts into the heavenly places. God tells us to take on his yoke and learn from him. God wants us to free ourselves from the burdens of the world. It's hard to do sometimes. A crushed spirit dries up the bones. when I think of dried bones and crushed spirits, I totally want a cheerful heart. Laughter is good for us. Release the tension and don't take everything so seriously. Love you and I hope you will lighten your burden with some laughter today. My Love, here's a cheesy joke,    'Wh...

  So this is my profile picture for my new job. Work from home. Varsity Tutors. I'm still looking because this is contract work and really part time. I thought I would send you a fresh up to date pic that I took today. I have been going all morning. 8am physical therapy, then mon wants to go to Costco and you have go go if mom wants to go. Then I'm filling out the forms and setting up my profile. I have a glitch. My profile picture went sideways but my avatar picture didn't turn. I tried cropping, rotating and everything I could think of. So I finally reached out to their tech people and haven't heard anything yet. Praise God I have a job, even if its part-time right now. I wanted at home so that's a plus.  How is your day going, My Love. have you been successful with your endeavors? I pray that you have. I just wanted to say hello and how are you doing today? Any success stories? You are a success story on your own. I love you and look forward to seeing you again, ...

 My Love I have seen how the devil is pushing hard to keep us apart this summer. My car being down is the most difficult thing. But I will soon be able to drive. I'm going to try today. I refuse to let us be apart for events when we don't have to. I love you and I'm walking out of the boat with faith. Blessed be the Name of our Lord and Savior Jesus. I stand with you and refuse to be kept apart from you because of my mistake. Me setting up the surgeries during the summer was so I could recover and be ready to work in the fall. Now with my car down I have to work remotely. I think I will prefer that. I'm getting out of the classroom, that's become too difficult for me but my credentials for the last fifteen years has bee teaching so I have to think outside the box. I love you and I am sincere in waiting for you to decide the right time. You ave my deepest affection and love. Together we can do well. We are half of one for each other. I have faith in us and know that ...

 I missed you yesterday but I had no transportation. I'm listening to the sermon today. I watched the 8th grade baccalaureate and graduation services yesterday. This morning I found the 10am service. Lord knew I needed to hear you.  Living a Rouge Faith. Going to the other side. God is calling us to go to the other side. God is calling us to go to the other side. We have to work through this time of invasion. The attack was on the church not just me. Worship and Justice is what we do with God. We let God have his way with this church. We are Justice, Peace and end Racism. Wherever I am, God is there. There should never be a woman harassed or racism spoken around you. You have to say don't do that around me.  The attack has been on us. The attack is to go for the head in hope that you can attack the body. We are a church of worship and justice. The devil tried to take us out but he couldn't. There is a storm going on. I am trying to make us storm ready and prepared. We don...

 I pray you had a good night and that your day is going well. My Love life is worth living. I’m so involved with my families woes. I have my life and now I am to be blamed for every decision my daughter has made and she feels she should not have listened to me because she was dismissed from school for failing three classes throughout the school year. She can transfer with good recommendations but of course she’s totally bummed out. I say you did well. You pass over 25 hours in a year. You hadn’t taken classes in years. Move on and remember, when you get a job, they ask are you certified and what is your certificate number.  We are looking for a scholarship to keep Austin at Montini. The one he had is now not available any more. I’m going to try the Stein scholarship if I can get an application. I’ll check on Monday. I pray that God hears our prayers, my prayers because I’m the only one really asking for God’s guidance and direction. When times get rough, you have to turn to Go...

 Praise God. We have each other. We are friends and I am secure in my feelings for you. Take comfort in knowing that you are loved. I think you came back and looked at your situation from a different view. You are an integral part of that community’s success and I would never take you away for what you love. I think this summer is a chance for us to anchor ourselves in the community again. You are so loved and needed that it can be overwhelming and consuming. Prioritize, delegate. It’s interesting to know that without you, people would not give to St Sabina. They don’t trust the community, but they trust you. Do what you have to do to help the community. I love you so much My Love. Be blessed and be a blessing to someone.

 Psalm 139:1-14 1 You have searched me,  Lord , and you know me. 2 You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. 3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. 4 Before a word is on my tongue you,  Lord , know it completely. 5 You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me. 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. 7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? 8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. 9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, 10 even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. 11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” 12 even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. 13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me t...

 I just love saying Good Morning My Love to you. One day I will say it in person. I saw your interview on  abc. It was direct and honest.I see your strength and love. I’m blessed that God has chosen us to be together. We just have to be his, he wants all of us. He gave everything for us. We must not hold back anything from him. He will get us through if we seek his face as a teachable moment. We have a lot to go through and as a realist there’s more to come. I love you and will not stray away. Be blessed today My Love and be a blessing to someone.

  Luke 12:22-31 New International Version Do Not Worry 22  Then Jesus said to his disciples:  “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear.   23  For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes.   24  Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds!   25  Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life [ a ] ?   26  Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest. 27  “Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 28  If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith!  29  And do not se...

 What a day! I know your heart was warmed with all the love you received today. Now calling my Tonya makes me want to tell you to tattoo Judith and a heart right over your heart-lol. You have so many activities this summer. I’ve got a few health issues to fix and will try to attend as much as I can. Today’s sermon was heartfelt and totally deep. You showed you were human and your struggles in your storm. Thank you for sharing you heart with us. You make me feel happy that I love you. Be blessed tonight and sleep well. You looked good today. Please take care of yourself. I love you. Good Night.

         Praise God! My daughter is going to drive me to church tomorrow. She's had a stinky attitude. lots of unfortunate things have happened to her and she is mad at God for allowing these things to happen to her. She says she'll take me but "I'm not coming in!"  I said fine. She thinks that I have ruined her life. She will live and learn for herself that only she controls her life. I will be praying for her none the less. Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love you tomorrow, you're only a day away. Love you.

 Here I am up since 4:30, just now decided to write to you, and also to pick up some biblical reading material. Thinking of You reminds me to think of God, for as He says, He will have no other gods before me. Make him the deepest desire of our hearts. Let him fulfill the yearnings of my heart. Saturdays are different when I talk to you because  I know you are there but there is no response. Though Sundays can be very responsive, real, fact filled and most of all loving. This morning so far I have done some more lessons in coding, responded to a job, got my grandson off at 6 am  and started to clean up the kitchen, but i was quickly reminded that there is only so much you can do with one arm. Sleeping is the worst. tons of pillows. I'm not complaining, just stating the facts. My Love have a blessed day. Exodus 20:3   “You shall have no other gods before  me. Psalm 37:1-4 Do not fret because of those who are evil      or be envious of tho...

 I didn’t sleep well and I had a lot of problems/concerns that was just wearing me down. Things worked out  in the afternoon. Praise God. I walk with him and talk with him and he know that I am his. Just like you know that I am yours and you are mine. I’m excited for Sunday. I forgot with shoulder surgery that it might be difficult to drive. I going to see if my daughter will take me. I’ll be there somehow. What are you doing now? I’m watching Serena at Roland Garros, in her third round. I wanted you to know that I am not in a sad mood like this morning. Just keep living. Just keep waking up and the day will change. Have a blessed evening My Love.

James 1:2 New International Version Trials and Temptations 2  Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, [ a ]  whenever you face trials of many kinds, Challenging times are opportunities to trust God even when it's hard, the road is narrow, its dark and you hear the animals growling in the distance. But if I trust in God, I have him beside me and his Spirit within me. Difficulties are all around me. Anxiety is definitely high right now. I have to remind myself to walk with God. The difficulties don't go away, but it's comforting to have a Spirit of trust and thankfulness with me through my difficulties. I know that this too shall pass. Stay close to God and he will walk with me through my difficulties. I love you and I pray that you have a blessed day My Love.

 I know that God hears my prayer because he placed you in my life. I turn my whole being to trusting and loving you. As God says, There is no fear in My Love, which shines on you continually. Sit quietly in My Love Light, while I bless you with radiant Peace. I put my self in a loving and trusting relationship. I will let trust and thankfulness be my guide. No Fear. I love you. Have a blessed day.

 I did it1 I have a spot for Sunday. I know i will have to get there early to get a good seat. I'm looking forward to seeing you, hearing you and just interacting with you. I want no one else but you. Gotta go to a dr's appt. I Love You. I'm so excited now that i know i have a spot. Praise Jesus. Be blessed today.